Excruciating Pain: A Personal Battle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by quick jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense discomfort behind a single eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical texts suggest bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery that supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy only. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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